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"FTW" 2004-05-25 - 1:57 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj ..and as the days roll by, I realize I'm building a new life the new band is going quite well I guess we're called "The Hotline" we've got three songs in three practices tomorrow I'm going back to practice with The Remaining and these people are becoming my friends Gabby, Sarah; Ruben, and Jon it's becoming my scene eventually I'll sneak into bars with them and get drunk with them we'll hang out and cry on eachother's shoulders when necessary and maybe we'll walk by Eon while Stephanie's doing a show because that's all gone now my old scene Evan and Stephanie and Jill and Robyn and Amber it died a slow, painful death my only real friends were Stephanie and Robyn Stephanie's moved on with Chris and Anne and the [other]twins she's got a whole new scene now I'm amazed at how easy it was for her one time she cried on my lap; and she used to get so pissed whenever I even insinuated she didn't like me but when things changed she didn't even make a pretense of still trying to be my friend the only time she's called me in the past six months was to borrow my leather jacket [which she still has, by the way] and to get me to go to her drag shows I'm out of her life now and Robyn; I don't know we never do anything anymore it makes me kinda sad I don't know now I'm building a new scene with The Hotline and The Remaining; and maybe that other band that practices in the other side of the warehouse sometimes where instead of reading eachother's diaries and talking about how depressed we all are we party and get drunk I can't say I'm happy about it I always enjoyed the whole 'depressed' thing but se la vi life goes on pretty soon I'll be playing shows, and drinking underage and who knows, maybe I'll even get a job and a girl/boyfriend before long I'll have a shiny new life ha sorry, the book I'm reading put me in a bad mood ...but it's not like any of this was a lie "tonight I'm feelin' sexy; gonna fuck the world" Sweet Dreams � � |