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"Somewhat Damaged" 2004-02-09 - 3:22 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj "I hurt you, 'cause I don't wanna hurt myself" "there are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how" I feel really horrible tonight I'm just getting so tired of the things I write in here and the way I think and the way I dress and the way I act and the way I am I miss so many people right now I miss the way things used to be between me and someone; because the way things are now between us isn't fun as I grew up I learned that nothing is permanent and that after a couple years my friends, my home, and my life would disappear and I would start again somewhere entirely new and I want that to happen now I want to just leave behind everyone who knows me go somewhere else change my last name to 'Smith' or 'Marr' or 'Curtis' or something, shave my sideburns; get all new clothes and just be someone else but it wouldn't be enough in a few years I would have to leave that life too something else I've learned is that no matter how much I change I will always grow to hate myself because; as Micheal Jackson has also learned: you can change your clothes, your hair, or even the color of your skin but inside, you will always be the same person and for some people that's hell "I do not want this" Sweet Dreams � � |