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"Obstacle 1" 2003-12-19 - 2:17 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj guess what didn't happen today? I'm so super-pissed at my "friends" I mean, come on you guys I have a full-time job, a stomach disease that leaves me disabled randombly and suddenly, and a car on its deathbed; and I can keep my fucking plans we planned this two weeks in advance, the only reason you should have to miss this is either being sick or dead or that you just plain don't like me which I'm starting to believe I mean, I like you guys except when shit like this happens if you didn't want to do the santa thing you could've just said so and we could've just hung out Robyn and Misty just plain wouldn't answer their phones both of them have caller ID [I'm pretty sure] makes you wonder and Stephanie said she had to go to work and that's the second time we've tried this and she's been suddenly called in to work when she wasn't scheduled also makes you wonder maybe that makes me a prick for suspecting that but this happens way too often for it to be coincidence we plan to get together and then suddenly everyone is too busy never just one all of you at once or maybe you just don't bother to answer your phone when that kinda shit happens it's hard to shake the image of you guys getting together by yourselves and just ditching me what the hell is so fucking wrong with me that you don't want to see me? am I really that big of an asshole? 'cause if I am, just fucking say it instead of saying you're my friends and then just avoiding me that's just a shitty thing to do if I didn't like you guys I wouldn't try to see you every chance I got and I wouldn't get upset when it didn't happen but I've been blown off a ton and a half of times since we've known eachother so-fucking-rry if it's starting to upset me and so what if I'm being an asshole right now? I'm so fucking sick of being the nice guy and just swallowing it when I have to spend another night alone contemplating suicide because I'm so fucking lonely I can't fucking stand it Goddamnit seriously, fuck you guys I've got your Christmas presents all ready and wrapped; see you next friday ...that is, if you're not busy Sweet Dreams � � |