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"Rain When I Die" 2003-11-04 - 3:53 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj she's crazy I'm crazier I'm starting to calm down now but for the last few days I think I've seriously started to go insane I'm starting to wonder if I'm going to end up doing something that'll land me on the news like go try and hold everyone in Toys R Us hostage or something I make jokes but I don't know how it seems like every ten minutes I had a new breakthrough about why I am the way I am and why I'm crazy we all say that that we're crazy a lot but I'm really serious I can't think straight I don't know which thoughts are real or not and I'm convinced that there's another personality inside me that wants to destroy me I look back to just two weeks ago; when everything made sense and I wonder how I used to switch between feeling depressed and happy now I switch between sane and not I wonder if I caught syphalis from a coke bottle or something and this is what it feels like when your brain rots earlier today I figured out a plan for my life what I want to do now I've added a few things to it wanna hear it? I'm gonna cut my hair, grow it out evenly for a change and keep it about medium length I'm gonna move to New York; and get a shitty little apartment in the Bowery down the street from CBGB'S; and spend all my free time and money there I'm gonna get hooked on heroin I'm gonna start a weird, artsy little punk/alternative band then one day I'm gonna OD in my shitty little apartment; and hope that the afterlife isn't as painful as this one I Think It's Gonna Rain When I Die � � |