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"Angry Chair" 2003-04-13 - 3:19 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj another Saturday spent doing nothing hopefully I'll be able to find a job next week because I'm going insane if I could talk to any of my "friends" again, I'd ask them what's wrong with me because obviously whatever's going on is my fault; it's not just coincidence that all my "friends" got real busy and speaking of "friends" being "busy"; Stephanie is possibly the busiest person I know especially for someone with no job, who's not preparing for college, and only hangs out with one or two people obviously I dont' know that much about her life anymore I haven't seen her or talked to her in two weeks but it just bothers me that she can't just be honest about not wanting to hang out with me anymore no one with no job is that fucking busy especially if they "really want" to hang out with someone I don't know I don't talk to Steph she doesn't read this there's no point in even saying anything I've already wasted too much space it's funny, I used to say that "I couldn't picture my life without her" and now I'm pretty much being forced to do just that of course, I think about her almost constantly, but whatever I really wish I could get a band going again I read interviews about the music scene in Seattle in the early '90s how the musicians would get together and jam and intermingle and come up with some good bands but the music scene in Tucson sucks sure, it's there, and it's pretty big but everyone's into shitty music there's only four people in Tucson who listen to the music I listen to/want to play: Amber, Evan, Stephanie, and Myself and only Evan and I play instruments and Evan doesn't want to be in a band I've been daydreaming for a couple hours about how cool it would be if Steph and Amber learned to play instruments and the three of us formed a band but that's not going to happen I just wish there was someplace where I could go to meet people with similar musical tastes like a "grunge club" or something the only other places musicians go to meet other musicians around here are flooded with "scene kids" it bothers me of course I could just be a solo act get up on stage with my accoustic guitar and sing all by myself but that's not what I want to do I want to be part of a band stupid everything I Hate Myself and Want to Die Sweet Dreams � � |