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"Between The Bars" 2014-09-14 - 2:45 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I'm really confused right now. in a lot of ways I feel like G___ is the love of my life, and I should wait and it doesn't matter, I should wait, because she's worth it but I keep getting mixed signals from her sometimes I feel like she feels the same way and sometimes I feel like she doesn't I don't know I guess if she had a diary she'd be saying the same thing "sometimes I feel like he's the one sometimes I feel like he's not" and I don't know what to do it was pretty easy when I figured there wouldn't be anyone else for a long time but the more time I spend with K_____, the more I feel like I'm falling for her and, I doubt K_____'s the one I recognize that marrying her is a possibility but it doesn't seem likely shit, I don't even know if she thinks of me as anything more than a friend but I'm confused because I'm in love with G____ and I want to wait for her but part of me is saying "this isn't going anywhere, she's never gonna leave him" and falling for K_____ and I just don't know I've never been the kinda person who can just wait and see what happens I have to do everything I can to be in control control is very important to me and so, I don't know who I should be chasing, basically I had an idea recently, that I'd chase both, and just see which one I "caught" first but it's against my nature I have to have a clear objective and... I just don't know maybe G____ really is the one and if I give up on her... but maybe it's a waste of time and if I blow off K_____ waiting for her and get nothing fuck man, I don't know I hate this shit I wish I was really as emotionless as I pretend to be blah blah blah who gives a shit? probably neither of them want me anyway � � |