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"Failure" 2004-03-16 - 1:53 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I feel really shitty tonight one of those deep, black depressions that I always think I'm over until one hits every time I talk to my parents it feels like they're just screaming at me about how much of a loser waste I am even when they're making jokes about something it feels like they're always thinking about how big of a failure I am when I'm around them and I just can't get my lyrics out of my head: "no matter what I do I'm a failure to you too" it's so fitting because I wrote it about this ha I hate letting other people get to me so bad even if they are my parents no one should have this much power over someone else gah and if I didn't feel like shit already I hit a cat on the way home from practice it ran out into the street to the side of my car, and ran under it; so the only thing I could do was pray it dodged the rear tires but it didn't I just keep hearing that "thud" over and over and as if I didn't feel bad enough about killing the poor cat; I can't shake the thought of some little kid waking up tomorrow and saying: "Mommy, where's Mr. Whiskers?" that'll make you feel like shit and the only person I want to talk to doesn't have the internet anymore sometimes, life just sucks Sweet Dreams � � |