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"Fortune's Faded" 2003-12-28 - 2:48 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I had a fun day today hung out with Stephanie; which is always fun saw Kill Bill Vol. 1(for the 4th time) with her, which makes me happy I'm naming my daughter[assuming I ever have one, of course] Gogo, and I don't care what anyone else says but the night itself was overshadowed[at least at the time I'm typing this] by the ride home I drove to Stephanie's[mistake], and then let her do the driving as we went around town then drove home and whatever Christmas Miracle got my car up to the point where I could drive it again has died away it literally died every time I wasn't accelerating thank God it was 2 AM and very few people were on the road luckily I should be able to get it to the shop tomorrow assuming I can make it that far I'm real tempted to call AAA and have 'em tow it because I'm honestly afraid to drive it even that short distance why did this shit have to happen now? why did I have to lose my job and have my fucking car break down at the same damn time? it's like God is intent on putting me back where I was at 17 no job and no car 'cause He knows those are the only damn things that've changed since then on the upside, though I've realized that my last paycheck will be regular sized, not small as I had thought yesterday I wasn't really thinking, I guess which is a small- oh, who am I kidding? a large comfort basically, a bank account really has become out of the question at this point maybe next job I've got $120 in checks from relatives [one for an extremely belated birthday gift; the other for graduation] and my next paycheck should be $350+ so at the very worst case scenario [I take it to the shop and then still have to replace the carborator] I'll basically end up with just the $41 in my wallet until I find another job but I'll be able to afford it but, in the scenario that it looks like it's coming out to be; [the problem is what my dad thinks it is; and they just fix it at the shop] I should still have a large portion of my paycheck left over and even though putting that in the bank would be smart it's not realistic I don't know I should just wait and see what happens at the shop tomorrow [and it does have to happen tomorrow] but it's my nature to plan ahead even if I don't know what's going to happen I don't know it just makes me think of that one line from the new Red Hot Chili Peppers song: Come On God, Do I Seem Bullet-Proof? � � |