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"Failures" 2003-12-14 - 2:53 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I really need to update my profile specifically the comments about my favorite diaries at this point they're just sitting there, mocking me with their needing-to-get-done-ness bah I don't know today was... nothing special my car did not get to the shop well, it did, but they didn't do anything so I brought it back home the fuckers I cleaned the spark-plugs and pulled out the air-filter today real minor stuff but I like working on the car even such minor stuff as that I put on my "work shirt", [which is an old Korn t-shirt turned inside out so it's blank] pull my hair back, stick a rag in my back pocket instead of the usual hanky; and sit out there working on it to the sound of one of my dad's old Creedence tapes despite how intentionally unnecessarily convoluted the bastards who design cars make them; working on them is fun in a "solving a complex math equation" kind of way I don't know I just wish I could learn to work on them better without having to have someone teach me whatever I don't know the general consensus now seems to be that my car needs a new carborator which we can replace ourselves and is generally cheaper than a lot of other things that could be wrong with it I don't know I just wish I didn't have to spend my money on it work is kind've becoming ordinary now, which I like the time today just flew by and looking back on my day it seems only a footnote less than school used to be, even and speaking of school; I got my grade from U of A, finally I got a B- for the course because I got a C- on the final I literally just eeked by I get the feeling that if I'd gotten one more wrong answer I would've gotten that letter telling me to repeat the course rather than a grade but regardless; CDO should have my diploma ready by Wednesday or Thursday at the latest at which time I will finally be a high-school graduate and will get money and fabulous prizes I'm hoping to get a decent sum of money from my grandparents, which I can then stat a bank account with since right now my paychecks are going into my car and that really kinda hurts, you know? I went out and found a job; I hold to my obligations, despite how much I hate it I do this to finally start digging myself out of the whole I've been in for the past few years and then my car breaks down and the things I got the job for in the first place don't happen instead of getting a start on a way out of here I'm stuck with a shit job added to my troubles and although I realize the money is going to a very real issue knowing that I'm not any closer to my goal despite my efforts feels pretty shitty I don't know I didn't have anything to say really I just wanted to be talking and if I keep going I'm gonna get real, real depressed it may already be too late I'm gonna go play videogames, my one comfort and opiate Choices Always Were A Problem For You... � � |