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"Caged Rat" 2003-11-10 - 4:40 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj please help me I'm trapped in my life I have to wait for everything Sindy and I are in love but she doesn't want an online relationship so we have to wait just like every single thing in my life I'm 19 I thought for sure that something would be happening by now that I would have a girlfriend I could spend time with and hug and do romantic shit with that I would have a band I could jam with and play gigs at clubs with that I would have a job I could go to and get paid from that I would be going off to college where I could finally learn something I could use and get away from my home but I have to wait until I can visit Sindy; and then if we get along in person we'll make plans for me to move up there, and then we can be together I have to wait a few years it took me forever to find people to start a band with; and now that I have he's a busy and/or lazy dipstick I have to wait until he finally gets around to making plans it seemed like I would never find a job; then finally my mom gets me an interview at Wal-Mart but I have to wait until they can check my references; and then call me back I can't even plan for college until I graduate high school and figure out things with Sindy and I have to wait for UofA to figure out what they're doing with my final before I can take that I'm 19 and I'm not even graduated from high school yet I have to wait for everything it's driving me insane every day I get up, then sit around my house until I fall asleep and it just goes on and on isn't this what prison is supposed to be like? and it's not like I can do anything about it I just have to wait for everything else to get around to me it sucks I thought if I did stuff then things would happen it turns out I do stuff; but then I have to wait for them to do stuff to before anything happens and they take fucking forever I thought: "hey, maybe I'll actually learn to skate. It would be something to do. And I've wanted to since I was a kid." but boards cost money for money I need a job and for a job I need to wait for Wal-Mart to fucking call me back whenever they get ahold of my references gah Despite All My Rage I Am Still Just A Rat In A Cage � � |