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"untitled" 2003-08-21 - 4:02 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj my dog died today it was actually the family dog about 10 years ago we got two dogs from my cousins; whose dog had puppies one for me, one for my sister my dog got hit by a car 5 years ago and my sister's dog kinda became the family dog and she died today I knew this day was coming for a while I had been hoping it would be a long ways off, though I was actually hoping to have moved out before it came sometimes when my dad's bored at work; he calls home asks if it's raining over here and stuff like that he told me to check on the dog, because as he got in his car he saw her laying in the backyard in a weird position either that or he said my sister saw her laying like that I'm not sure which so, still talking to my dad on the phone, I went outside and discovered the dog dead it was really horrible he told me to put her in a plastic bag so it was I who had the task of putting the family dog in a plastic bag and carrying her to the side of the house so we could figure out what to do with her later the ground is so hard here a burial is pretty much out of the question I think my dad's going to take her to animal control I've been trying to spare you guys the details, but... the overly squeamish amongst you may want to skip to the asterisks ... she was already stiff when I found her... and lifting her to put her into the bags was like handling some horrible stuffed animal or dog mannaquin or something it was horrible *** my mind is already starting to block out most of it and I'm shoveling as much repression on it as I can but I think that memory is going to haunt me for a long time; if not forever after I... did all I could, I did a shot of vodka, threw all my clothes in the laundry, took a shower, and had a cigarette it was a real bad day the ironic thing is; the cousins who owned her mom are the cousins who live right around the corner they still have her mother she's still alive how does the daughter die of old age before the mother? it doesn't make sense maybe tomorrow nothing will happen and I can talk about other inconsequential stuff that I've been meaning to talk about but today.. I had to get that off my chest Sweet Dreams � � |