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"Mr Self Destruct" 2011-03-30 - 5:20 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj you know what bothers me? ten years ago, when I was back in high school I decided that Nine Inch Nails' song "And All That Could've Been" held a strong connection for me specifically the line: "happiness and peace of mind were never meant for me" and now, ten years down the line, it seems just as true as it did back then ten fucking years shit, back then, I planned to move out of my parents' house as soon as I turned eighteen like, that day I figured I'd be a rock star by now, right about the age to die of a heroin overdose I figured I'd at least be on my own, with a girlfriend, and a good job, and if nothing else my own fucking family now, shit, ten years have passed and I moved out for a while and I was in a band and I've had girlfriends but I'm still back at here at my parents' house, basically in the same situation I was back then except I'm not in school anymore; and my job sucks; and I've got no prospects; and I'm buried well over my head in debt it's worse, really everything I tried and did got me nothing except to make it worse I guess my sister got it right just never try at all, then you break even and I guess happiness and peace of mind never were meant for me I whine in here all the time about how horrible my life is but this is like, 1/20th of me as a person this is me at my lowest I have a whole life outside of this what bothers me is that I keep coming back here you know the art isn't gone � � |