"Starless And Bible Black" 2011-02-09 - 6:00 a.m.

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nobody understands

I post shit on my facebook sometimes,

and I tell my friends, when we're drunk enough

and nobody understands

I'd post this on facebook, if they just fucking got it, for one second

my best friends in the world; and I could never explain it to them

I've tried, you know?

we've gotten drunk together, I trust them with my life; and they don't get it

and God, do I really love L____ or am I just fooling myself

I don't want to hurt her again

I want to do right by her, whether I love her or not

so it's probably best she stays away from me

I'm toxic, baby

like Britney Spears

I will hurt you, you don't want anything to do with me

I don't understand why you'd ever be my friend

I am infectious human waste

I will hurt you

and it sounds like I'm being dramatic

and to an extent I am,

but Jesus,

26 years, and this is what I've got to show

experience doesn't lie

I am toxic

run, as fast as you can

I'm not like other boys

Hear me now and don't forget
I'm not the man my actions would suggest
A little boy, I'm tied to you
I fell apart
That's what I always do

This ain't about regret
My conscience can't be found
This time I won't repent
Somebody's going down

Feel it now and don't resist
This time the anger's better than the kiss
I must admit when so inclined
I tend to lose it than confront my mind

'Cause it don't bleed and it don't breathe
It's locked its jaws and now it's swallowing
It's in our heart
It's in our head
It's in our love
Baby it's in our bed

Tonight I go to hell
For what I've done to you
This ain't about regret
It's when I tell the truth

And once again the monster speaks
Reveals his face and searches for release
A little boy is tied to you
Attracted only 'til it comes unglued

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