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"Confusion" 2005-04-16 - 12:37 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj **WARNING** and no I'm not kidding [expect a full account of my day later] tonight was confusing, I went out with Chris and had a great time. We were downtown, so I took him back to the practice room to show him around. So then we started making out. and it got pretty heavy. and he started giving me head. and... I felt nothing. he was sucking my dick and I couldn't get higher than half-mast. earlier at Eon while I was getting my drag training, I met this other guy. And he came on really strong. I may not be able to make a move on other people, but I can't say no when they make a move on me. So I made out with him. So I actually made out with two guys today. And I didn't feel anything either time. Nothing down there. So either I've got erectyle dysfunction... or I'm not gay. and I don't know what the fuck that makes me. I stand by my previous statements that "vaginas are disgusting". And I can't really picture myself in a relationship with a girl; but I think tonight has proven in spades that guys don't do it for me. Goddamnit. I've made out with girls in the past, and without even getting close to what Chris and I did; I was rock hard. but Chris was giving me head and nothing was happening. I was so Goddamn sure. Goddamnit. I don't know. I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't like girls but they turn me on I like guys but I can't get it up for them what the hell is wrong with me? Goddamnit. I think I'm going to throw up. So Long And Goodnight � � |