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"These Days" 2005-01-31 - 2:56 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj so, my weekend was pretty lame but after that... I woke up late saturday called Kevin, because he had the day off and I said I would but my worst fear was realized when some fast food place or something answered the phone I don't know by now I've kinda realized/convinced myself that he either A)made a mistake when he gave me the number or B)has a different area code[he lives pretty far downtown] because to be honest, he acts more like he wants to be my friend than my actual friends do [well, Stephanie and her group anyway; Robyn's a true friend] and the only evidence against him is my own insecurities I mean, I fight so hard to get over that and just have a regular friendship with people and just be able to talk casually but in the back of my mind is always the overbearing fear that I'm that annoying guy that nobody wants to talk to but comes up and acts like your friend anyway so I mean, I'm fighting that real hard and I'm 95% sure that it's all in my head, and he just made a mistake and tomorrow or tuesday I'm gonna go to Hot Topic and ask him about it because it's all just in my head, and I have to remember that ...anyway after Kevin, I called Stephanie, who didn't answer and then Robyn, who didn't answer so I spent saturday evening depressed and lonely and I ended up staying up until 7:30 the next morning playing Onimusha 3 today I couldn't get ahold of Ruben he was out of town last weekend on business then he got a vacation, so he went to Las Vegas for most of the week he was supposed to be back today, and we had plans to practice and meet a drummer but I couldn't get ahold of him so, just like my mom, I'm getting all worried and fearing the worst which always happens everytime anybody goes out of town, or even just any time I can't get ahold of them I'm always afraid they died in a car accident or something but I always end up hearing from them the next day so hopefully this won't be any different but I'm still worried I don't know one of the worst weekends I've had in a while in actuality one of the worst weeks I've had in a while there was no pressure, which was fun at first but.. there was no substance a waste of a whole week I have to change that this week I don't know Sweet Dreams � � |