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"My Band" 2004-09-09 - 4:51 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj Finally got ahold of The Room today I had to wake up at 11 or something to get it; which is pretty early for me well I didn't have to; but EB actually called me, and hell if I was going back to sleep knowing that I had a copy of it waiting for me I'll talk about it more tomorrow; I'm pretty tired today anyway; I use this site for the serious side of things, so here we go: I'm thinking of quitting the band again Ruben is the biggest idiot I know I can barely even stand him anymore originally I thought it would be good to have a band with different tastes with Gabby and Ruben into straight-up punk and me into alternative; it would force us to create a balance and from that balance would come a new sound; which would hopefully sound good but lately all we do is argue Gabby doesn't say much but Ruben is constantly bitching about how the songs need to be shorter and more simplistic and even though I'm trying to create the balance; all I want to do is play darker, more artistic stuff it's really pissing me off and lately I've been thinking about the talent differential I mean; I hate to say this kinda stuff but I can say with no ego that I am more talented than both of them especially Ruben I'm worried that it's going to hold me back I hate talking like that I feel like such a cocky prick but it's a fact that they are less talented than me; and it's a legitimate concern of mine I don't know and now Ruben's saying that we should re-hire Sara I don't even want to get into it but he's such a fucking idiot he's like a little fucking kid and he just fucking loves to start shit in the band he can't perform and he can't play and all he does is bitch about how he wants the band to sound fuck I don't know on one hand: that's a nice practice room; and I don't have a PA, so it would suck to lose those two things but it would suck more to get this far in a band and not play any gigs this is the third band I've been in; and I still haven't played an actual gig I've played some shows [I consider the difference to be: a show is something put on by the band, with just friends of the band/s in attendance; whereas a gig is where the band is hired to play in an actual club or bar] but no gigs and I'd hate to be in this band for 8 months; write a whole original set; and get a demo recorded only to quit when we're right on the verge of playing gigs and the more far-reaching implications: the band is the only thing keeping me in Tucson right now if the band breaks up; I'm free to leave and I definitely want to but where do I go? now that I've decided to forego college; there's no reason for me to go anywhere else other than just a place with a good music scene plus there's the fact that I really have no money I could sell the rest of the stock my grandfather bought me; which would probably give me enough money to actually move but I would need to get a serious job as soon as I got there and with my luck at getting jobs that's not an acceptable risk I don't know in all likelyhood; if I want to move then it's going to require several months of preparation; which would start when I get another job which in turn would probably take at least two weeks from when I decided I wanted to move and if I quit The Remaining; I'm going to want to play in another band, but I don't want to start another band in Tucson which is just another problem I don't know I suppose the smartest course of action would be: stay in the band as long as I can, play as many gigs as possible all the while intending to quit and move, and preparing the rest of my life to do so with the variables of course being: How long can I physically stand to coexist with Ruben? vs. The possibility that this turns around, like it usually does; and I decide to stick with the band indefinitely. it's all such a big pain in the ass I need to grow up I make everything a pain in the ass and I need to fucking stop now let's just see if I can keep up with my plan everybody cross your fingers Sweet Dreams � � |