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"Requiem" 2004-01-01 - 5:12 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj everyone else is saying "happy new year" but not me, because I'm so different and cool I'd rather give a eulogy to the year that has just ended, 2003 "2003: You were a mediocre year. Nothing important happened to me; but you saw our country get dragged into a pointless war[or was that "police action"?] over a personal vendetta, but all anyone can talk about is how one slutty pop-star from the 80's kissed another slutty pop-star from the 90's on tv. I hope you rot in whatever afterlife years get." so yeah I had a decent time with my family tonight I still can't quite bring myself to cheer up though the shop could indeed do nothing for my car and I'm going to try and put a manual choke on it tomorrow which should be "fun" in the worst way and things with my on-again-off-again-semi-relationship-maybe-someday-girl Sindy are hitting a rocky point my school apparently decided that I'm missing a credit for a course I took; and that even though I've completed all the requirements, I probably won't get my diploma for another 5 months and it still makes me too angry to think rationally, so I have to refrain from calling them and doing anything about it I'm unemployed, and can't go about looking for another job until my car is fixed and to add insult to injury; the third season of The Shield is going to start in March instead of January bastards I'm starting to want to wear all black again; but it still makes me feel so incredibly pretentious despite the fact that I am legitimately depressed enough to wear all-black all the time I don't know I just wish I at least had the energy to write songs or something instead of just sit in front of the tv or computer too depressed to try doing anything else and through it all, I hear that place calling me my Special Place that idealized place I've created in my head, that I wish more than anything I could just retreat into and be alone Silent Hill it's just the polygonal setting of a videogame series but I've imbued it with so much more meaning it's just so beautiful... a completely abandoned town; no other people to expect things of me or ruin what I expect just horrible monsters under the cover of grey fog and some great goal, some opiate on a stick to fight towards; some reason to go on but in the end I don't really want it; because it would have to be some person, and people do nothing but fail I fail them or they fail me; and nobody's happy why set that up when I could just be alone in the fog, with the other monsters... Happy Fucking New Year � � |