"Ch-Ch-Changes" 2003-12-27 - 3:50 a.m.

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things have changed since my last entry

in probably the biggest news, I was laid off from my job today

I expected seasonal employment to last until mid-January at least

but nope

admittedly I didn't expect a meeting with the manager to be anything good

but I figured if they were going to fire me they could just get a supervisor or something to do it

but I was wrong

as I was walking in, I glanced at the schedule and saw that I wasn't on it

and I pretty much knew

after that it was basically what I expected

"thanks for working here, good luck"

a shake of the hand and I'm through with Wal-Mart

on the upside I don't have to go in to work on tuesday

but of course, the real concern is:

what the hell am I going to do for money now?

I've still got one more paycheck coming

but that'll be for maybe $100 if I'm lucky

the only real question is: do I start looking for work tomorrow; or do I give myself a little Christmas break and start on tuesday, when I was expecting to go back to work?

I don't know

this really sucks

blah

anyway

I got a ton of albums for Christmas, as I mentioned; but most of all I've been listening to the 'Best of Bowie' album I got from my aunt

I just love Changes

not to mention the rest of his music

I don't want to guess about who God is

[although I'm suspecting Isaac Haayes]

but I'm pretty sure David Bowie is the second coming of Jesus

I don't know

I guess I'm not as funny when I'm unemployed

that's about it

I might hang out with Stephanie and/or Robyn tomorrow

and if I don't I'll probably hang out with my cousin

but if I don't then it's back to depressed entries for me

the only actual good thing that may come from my return to unemployment is that maybe I'll relax a little more and I won't make myself sick as often

here's hoping I find a job at Zia

Sweet Dreams

I still don't know what I was waiting for

And my time was running wild

A million dead-end streets

Every time I thought I'd got it made

It seemed the taste was not so sweet

So I turned myself to face me

But I've never caught a glimpse

Of how the others must see the faker

I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Don't want to be a richer man

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Just gonna have to be a different man

Time may change me

But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size

But never leave the stream

Of warm impermanence and

So the days float through my eyes

But still the days seem the same

And these children that you spit on

As they try to change their worlds

Are immune to your consultations

They're quite aware of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Don't tell them to grow up and out of it

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Where's your shame

You've left us up to our necks in it

Time may change me

But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me

Changes are taking the pace I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

(Turn and face the stranger)

Ch-ch-Changes

Pretty soon you're gonna get a little older

Time may change me

But I can't trace time

I said that time may change me

But I can't trace time

-Changes

David Bowie

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