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"Brick" 2003-11-26 - 3:37 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj not much has really been happening to me I've really started to dislike work; but at the same time I'm slowly starting to get used to it I've realized that in order to stop making this so needlessly hard, I have to make it a routine and I hate routines but that's how it's gotta be it can't become a question of wether or not I'm working but of how long I'm working that day I'm still debating it; but for the moment my plan is to bear with the full-time thing through the temporary employment period and try and save around half my paycheck each time then once the seasonal employment ends, try and find another job where I can work part time and not have to put away as much money or if they decide to keep me on at Wal-Mart to just switch my hours to part time then and do the same with my money I don't know right now that's just an idea after friday I may decide to just fucking quit friday is... I'm trying hard not to think about it but suffice to say: whenever I'm up to updating, I'm sure I'll have plenty of horror-stories anyway, something I'm pretty sure I keep forgetting to mention: they have a sign just above the urinals in the Men's restroom by layaway at Wal-Mart it has a bunch of stuff about shop-lifting; and then at the bottom says: "we prosecute shoplifters, don't risk it" or something like that well, one time I was in there alone, and I had a pen with me so I hurriedly added my own touch to it so now Wal-Mart has a policy of prostituting shoplifters heh heh it's been there everytime I've come in since then; so hopefully it's there to stay that would rock in a minor way anyway on to the serious stuff: I've always thought that when I fell in love, I would just Know It like it would just hit me; and I would Know It but the times I've "Known It" have turned out to be false alarms and disasters [though not necessarily in that order] and now I find myself thinking about her almost constantly and I have to ask myself: is this what love actually is? and also: will I ever find out? I came real close to seeing her tonight but as I left; I had to tell myself that the burning and tearing in my eyes was just from the cigarette smoke She's A Brick; And I'm Drowning, Slowly... P.S. - here's the link I promised Steph � � |