"I'm Actually 8 Years Old" 2003-09-23 - 4:20 a.m.

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you all remember that I have Crohn's Disease, yeah?

I spent a large portion of entries talking about it and how much it was ruining my life

but then I got that medication, and everything was fine again

well, I ran out of it a few days ago

and as I went to call Walgreens to get it refilled, I suddenly realized that I had to have the doctor authorize more

I tried to have it refilled anyway, and Walgreens said they would call my stupid doctor for me

so I thought 'sweet' and let it go

but that was saturday; and they didn't reach him then

we figured the office would be closed on Sunday, so I let that slide

well today I called Walgreens again(yeah, I should've just called the doctor, but I wanted to see if they had gotten ahold of him and forgot to call me)

and they still haven't reached him

I made a mental note to call for myself but promptly forgot

so now I've been without medication for two days, and I can feel things starting to go downhill in my intestines

and I'm calling the Goddamn doctor's office tomorrow to find out why the fuck they won't talk to the people at Walgreens

I'm not looking forward to it

I'm half expecting the secretary to put the doctor on and for him to say: "oh, well I'm sure you're cured, you were just barely sick anyway. You don't need anymore medication."

and then I'll have to kill him.

and I'll go to jail, and all that.

I fucking hate my doctor. Or more accurately, my Gastro-intestinal Specialist

I've bitched about him in here many a time, and he is the biggest fucking prick I've ever had to deal with.

most doctors are un-helpful; but I got the feeling the doctor at the airforce base was trying, it just sucked I had to go all the way across town to see him.

but the point I started to make with that sentence was: most doctors are unhelpful, but this guy seems like he's going out of his way to fuck with me

he's the biggest asshole I've ever seen

gah

anyway,

Clinton hasn't called back either

granted, it's only been two days, but I'm starting to worry

you have to understand: being in a band is the ultimate goal in my life.

as simple as that

by Clinton not calling me back, even for two days, it's two days I am not in a band; and it's fucking with me

of course with my luck he'll call tomorrow, and the "downhill" feeling in my intestines will have led to full on sickness

plus my dad might have to borrow my car tomorrow, and so there's that too

I don't know

everytime my parents are anywhere near my car I get nervous as hell they'll notice the cigarette-smoke-reek that my van has acquired, but they remain ignorant so far

I just have to hope my luck holds

but back to the Clinton thing:

if he hasn't called me by the time I get my medication back and everything's hunky dory again, I'll call him

the only reason I didn't call him yesterday or today was not wanting to be annoying

but I think by the time I get my meds back(I'm thinking wednesday) it'll be a (barely)long enough time span to have passed the 'annoying' mark

we'll see

with my luck he'll change his mind or something

my luck with starting bands is horrible

I'll probably be lucky to get out of this alive

and, to end on something irrelevant:

I watched All Things Rock tonight, and there were only two videos that didn't suck

A Perfect Circle's new one(which I tuned in to see) and Jet

Jet's a decent band; but they taught me a valuable lesson:

Only The Strokes Are Cool Enough To Stand Around And Look Bored While They Play

when anyone else does it it just looks like they don't have any passion for their music

and that's extremely lame

so fie, Jet, fie

but I digress, again

the point was:

the rock music scene sucks right now

sucks hard

I realize it's just MTV, but still

there's been very few good bands formed/discovered in the past five years

and I do realize that most of the good bands are always underground

but my only real means of finding out about bands are MTV, the radio, and Sindy, who has turned me on to more good bands since I've known her than the previous two have in a few years

I want to bitch about the trends I find abhorrent in the bands these days

but I have friends who like those things, and I don't want to upset them

so I'll just call it a night

Sweet Dreams

P.S. - Tonight's entry title refers to the fact that I couldn't stick to my original point on anything I talked about tonight

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