"Long Gone Day" 2003-05-24 - 3:29 a.m.

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two songs I need to re-learn: Touch Me, I'm Sick by Mudhoney; and I'm Above by Mad Season

much to talk about, tonight

my whole family(my dad's side anyway) is in town this weekend, so I'm consumed by family functions

my aunt has been staying with us all week, so for the most part I've been occupied with her

but tomorrow night everyone's getting together here

and then Sunday there's graduation parties for my cousin

one from each of his parents(they're divorced)

it'll be cool to see my uncles again; but for the most part it's kind of annoying

add to that the fact that the reason everyone made plans to come here was that it was a holiday and me and my cousin were supposed to be graduating; but it turns out he's the only one who actually is

and it adds a tint of pain to the proceedings

*sigh*

and in other news I've been kind of sick all week

which sucks

it hasn't been real bad

mostly it's been dulled because of the medication

nowhere near as sick as I used to be; but sick enough to shatter my confidence

and last night I had one of my "attacks"; and I was up pretty much all night sitting on the toilet

I had planned to go into detail describing exactly how much my "attacks" hurt,

but I really don't feel like it

suffice to say they hurt more than any analogy I can think of

I've upped my meds, and hopefully that'll do the trick

if not then I'm in for another long, arduous process with my fucking stomach specialist

*sigh*

here's hoping the extra dose will do it

and since I'm really tired, I'm just gonna cut to the last thing I wanted to bitch about:

I don't think I belong in this time

I really would give so much to be the age I am now in Seattle in 1988 or '87

then I could've gotten a band formed and been a part of the time I really belonged in:

the music scene of early '90s Seattle

I wish so bad I could've been a part of that

instead I'm stuck in early 2000 Tucson; where nobody wants to play that kind of music anymore

if everything goes according to plan I'm going to college in Olympia, which is a short trip from Seattle, in the hopes that I can find people who still dig that scene

[in a brief history lesson; Nirvana was actually formed in Olympia, and I'm actually going(hopefully) to the college where the members of Bikini Kill met and formed their band]

if nothing else I'll at least get out of the hot fucking sun and into some nice rain

but if that falls through then I'm(again, hopefully) off to New York, home of the World Famous Ramones

Gabba Gabba Hey!

Sweet Dreams

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