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"Hush" 2003-05-05 - 4:23 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I'm such a fucking nobody I have nothing to say to anyone ever I can't believe people read this I don't understand why people would want to be friends with me I can't even talk to people anymore I've got nothing interesting to say no interesting stories to tell no experience on anything from which to base advice on I used to be good at cheering people up I used to be able to at least act like everything was ok but I can pinpoint the exact moment I lost that there's an entry about it in here somewhere I came home from a walk one night and my mom was sitting in the living room crying she said that I hated her, and that I never listened to her, and that I was just tolerating her until I moved out and she was right but instead I told her: "no mom, I love you" and I just went on and on telling her how she wasn't right and all these lies to make her feel better and it took everything I had after that, I haven't been able to tell anyone "things will be ok" the words just don't come even when I'm feeling good and happy, I can't think of anything and I just have nothing to offer anyone I'm sorry � � |