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"I'm Insane" 2003-01-29 - 4:44 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I can't sleep I don't know why usually when I can't sleep it's because thoughts are racing through my head but tonight I'm relaxed(well, I was) it sucks of course I slept almost all day woke up at nine, did some work, practiced my guitar with the mic and everything; then went back to sleep at about one slept 'til five damnit and now I'm wide fucking awake I could do gymnastics I wiped the dust off my screen it's wierd, everything's so sharp and bright there must've been about an inch layer of dust there alright, that's horrible exaggeration; but there was a lot enough to make a disturbingly large difference in the quality of the picture I realized/found out today that Dinosaur Jr got together the year I was born interesting but trivial lately I've been having trouble deciding if I should stick with guitar or go back to bass despite the fact that most people would be able to accept the fact that they play both I'm wierd, and I commit to things like, really commit so I'm either a guitar player or a bass player I could play either for a band, but I have to pick one to be dominant('cause that's the way my mind works); and I can't pick which one my 300th entry is coming up I had planned to do something "special" for my 100th entry, but forgot then I planned to do like the Simpsons and do something special for the 112th(or some random number like that) entry but I forgot my 200th entry came at a time(I'm pretty sure) when I was horribly depressed, and wierd things were happening between me and my friends; and entry numbers were beyond un-important for my 300th entry, far too much has happened for me to try and sum it up(like I had planned to do for my "100th Entry Special"), so I'm planning to take some pictures of myself with my parents' digital camera and post them in here for people who haven't met me while I realize this will probably frighten off most of my readers; I realize that most people are the curious types, no matter how well they can control it in front of others, and for things like on-line diaries the issue of "what does this horribly over-dramatic person look like?" arise so I'll give that a try and I must apologize to Jeanisdead; I went about a week where I didn't talk to anyone becuase I felt really anti-social, and I usually don't get on until late because one of my old friends found out my new screen-name and I don't want to talk to him; so I wait until after he gets off to log on and then the past two days something has fucked up with my IM so I've been disconnected before I could talk to you and while I realize this probably isn't tearing you up inside, one day it fucked up right after I got on and today it fucked up right after you got on; so it probably looks like I'm avoiding you; and I just wanted to let you know that this isn't the case and speaking of other people, "Lilyrain" works at a thrift-store according to her answers on that quiz(which admittedly was in an older entry, so she may not work there anymore), and I buy all my clothes except t-shirts at thrift stores; so I'm thinking next time I go shopping I'll have to go to the one she works at and meet her in person it's going to be so hilariously awkward, just because I'm inordinately shy and bad at talking to people(in general, but it's even worse-) when I'm first meeting them so that should be interesting and despite the fact that I'm still not tired, I can't think of any other random crap to talk about, so I'll just have to go thrash around my bed trying to get to sleep bloody insomnia, Sweet Dreams If I ran away today Will you pull me back tomorrow? Took some time to arrange With trust, space will follow Out to find the things you need Your connections hard to swallow Still things you tell me when Your eyes track me down, keepin' you hollow Throat starts to drain I've done it way too many times to go away Gone in a state, by my water Can you bring it back to me Will you follow? And how'd you get away If I ran away today Will you pull me back tomorrow? Took some time to arrange Your connections hard to swallow I know you're somewhere, I'm Insane It's your needs on my brain Smack me out, Our eyes exchange To have the strength to stake my claim Have you placed it? I can't taste it Will I waste it? Can't trace it Time to face it Now gonna go away I know you're somewhere, I'm Insane It's your needs on my brain Smack me out, Move on with change To have the strength to stake my claim I know you're somewhere, I'm Insane To have the strength to stake my claim I know you're somewhere, I'm Insane To have the strength to stake my claim -I'm Insane Dinosaur Jr � � |