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"Bigger is Better" 2003-01-08 - 8:46 p.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj not much going on I'm so desperately lonely jeanisdead put a list of 'as many things you don't know about me that I can list in one sitting' in her diary and it makes me sad because I wish I had someone to tell that kind of stuff to sure, I know people read this; but I don't know, it's just not the same and besides, the stuff you people don't know about me I don't want you to know I'm already disgustingly open in this thing(literally, I am disgusted by how open I am in here) the only things I haven't told are closely guarded secrets but Stephanie was too busy to hang out with me for a week and now they're all in school and it sucks I'm so desperately lonely I know I could just open IM and talk to some people, but I don't want to and I don't know why I don't want to but I don't *sigh* I'm so stupid I'm getting really sick again damnit I fucking hate my stomach and I fucking hate the fucking specialist who didn't do shit for me and then made me wait another two months before I can even see him again fuckhead damnit in other news, I'm now hell-bent on taking up the guitar don't get me wrong I love bass I really do the only problem I have with it, is that it doesn't stand up on its own like when I occasionally go down to Wilson and play, if someone were to sit around and listen it would sound like shit bass just is not a solo instrument but guitar you can play solo and make a career out of it it's just a more open-ended instrument if that makes sense but yeah, so now I'm planning to take up guitar and I'm still gonna sing so if Robyn still wants to be in a band with me; she can play either drums or bass if she picks drums we'll get Misty on bass or maybe I'll force Stephanie to learn it and if she picks bass then I'll force Evan to join up again I don't really want to force either of them to do anything I really don't but not being in a band is starting to drive me crazy just knowing that I have to wait until I get a job and earn enough money to get a PA System before we can even get started is starting to become physically painful the only upside is that it'll give me time to learn guitar and for Robyn to learn whatever she wants if it comes to that I could teach Steph bass in a matter of hours it's so bloody simple or, now that I think about it, I could teach Robyn in a few hours as well for that matter but whatever anyway and, some shallow crap to end the night I've never thought Sandra Bullock was particularly talented or attractive oh sure, she's good(if nothing else she beats the shit out of Jennifer Lopez; but then again, I think everyone does, so...) but she's nothing special doesn't really stand out and you have to admit she's in some absolutely shit movies but, she's announced that she's going to take a break from making movies and being in the public eye so she can gain weight she's tired of all the stick thin actresses out there, and the BS way of thinking that thin is beautiful so she's going to take time off and get fat which makes her my new favorite actress I can guarantee you that I'll be seeing her next movie, no matter how 'chick-flick'y it is even if it's Speed 3 I just hope that more actresses/celebrities, and regular women for that matter, follow her example and realize that it's just plain freaking dumb busting your ass to try and stay thin and not only is it easier, and(to some extent) healthier to be fat but it's also much, much more attractive so yeah, that's my "fat is where it's at" rant for the night Sleep Well, and Dream of Large Women Sweet Dreams � � |