"Bastard" 2002-11-05 - 11:38 p.m.

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not a damn thing happened today

I sat at home bored out of my skull

being sick sucks

not only are you in pain; but you have to sit home and be bored as hell because of it

oh well

at least I don't really get sick too often except for past occasions when this has flared up

I just hope whatever they do for me makes it go away

but in other news Steph and Robyn have volunteered to go on those "comic runs" I was discussing last entry

and now I feel like a dickhead because it feels like I put that in here just to drop hints that they should

damnit

and ordinarily I'd tell them: "no, I don't care if you want to; I wouldn't feel right" but after today it's come to my attention that I *NEED* something to do, someway to obtain things from the outside.

damnit

so basically now I'm going to go against all my principles and have them do it

damnit

oh well, at least it should only be for three weeks

I'll just find something horribly altruistic I can do for them to repay them

of course, there's always the possibility that when I[what was it Robyn?] do go to the specialist; he'll just ask me the same routine quesitons that EVERYONE has been asking me; then schedule me for another appointment where they run the actual tests later

and then even when we get the tests done, who knows how long it'll be before the results come in, and they make another appointment to figure out treatment/a cure

*sigh*

this sucks more than anything that has ever sucked before

and I mean that this time

I think this has been the worst experience of my life

of course I have a horrible memory, I'm sure I'm just forgetting something

or blocking something out

but either way this is right up there if it's not on top

shit

*and* I was going to watch a horror movie when I finished writing this; but now I don't feel like it

damn everything

Sweet Dreams

I always put "Sweet Dreams" at the end of my entries because I write them late at night, but I think my friends read these in the afternoon when they get home from school; making the whole "Sweet Dreams" thing unapplicable.

hmm

I'll have to think of a better closing line...

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