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"Been a Son" 2002-11-04 - 11:02 p.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj most interesting day this morning my mom got home from the doctor's office; knocked on my door and asked me: "did you go to school today?" if I wasn't holding a mug half full of coffee I might have struck her I wanted to scream: "what are you fucking stupid!!!?" 9/10s of our conversations now center around my stomach, and the general concensus has been reached that I'm not going back to school until I get treated/cured, and even then it's questionable and she still asks me "did you go to school?" like she fucking expected me to when I move out I'm not telling her my address, or giving her my phone number and if she presses me about it while I'm packing up my stuff from here then I'm going to fucking tell her but I'll spare you the rant I planned out in my head today after that we went in for my chronic health conference some guy I've never seen before seemed to be running the show; but everyone else seemed supportive maybe now my mom will be fucking convinced to get the fuck off my back I'll spare you the details but they're saying that in a month, depending on what the specialist says; if I get treated I'm going back to school. If I don't, then we'll see. Just one more thing waiting on this fucking specialist asshole dickhead and they want to wait forever just because it's not fatal or it would've shown up in the blood tests a month is a long goddamn time when your life is on hold; and you're in pain every day fuckheads *sigh* but in other news, apparently Stephanie and Evan are hanging out again, which makes me happy. And Evan is genuinely concerned about me. Which also makes me happy. he offered to bring me something, and I'm tempted to make him go buy me comics every weekend(I'd give him the money of course) that's not my style though of course I'm kinda tempted to ask any of my friends, who are all very supporting[by the way, thanks alot guys. It's not unappreciated. I just wish I could reciprocate somehow] while I don't plan on it; part of me is arguing the case anyway saying I could get them to go together, it would be a fun activity on weekends, an opportunity for Robyn and Steph and maybe even Evan to start hanging out again; drive down to R-Galaxy together and purchase issues of House of Secrets they'd get to say "hi" to me when they pick up the money and drop off the comics and even though I wouldn't want to chance driving all the way down there even if I was feeling good; if I was feeling good maybe they could hang out and watch a movie or something after they dropped off the comics but I won't ask them I don't want to just the fact that they care is more than I could ever ask for from them; so I refuse to even imply that they should be giving more if anything I should go buy them things on weekends after I feel better but oh well that's how my mind works I just get lost in thought, going on tangents into alternate realities that won't ever happen ah well it could be worse I could be constantly thinking about reality Sweet Dreams � � |