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"Boys Don't Cry" 2002-10-15 - 12:42 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj fuck I really don't want to be writing this; but I'm back in manic mode and I don't want to end the night on a depressing note I fucking hate being manic on the way to nightfall the other day(which sucked by the way); I started to pull my hair back in a ponytail so it doesn't blow in my face when I drive(as I usually do) and Stephanie said: "Brett, you're such a girl" once we got there I let my hair down and kept the rubber band around my wrist, when Stephanie noticed and realized I'd pulled my hair back with a rubber band instead of a real hair tie she said: "Brett, you're such a boy" honestly I like being called a girl better it's funny I remember when I went to queer prom; me and Steph and Amber all sat in the back seat(and all three of us had skirts on by the way) of Matt's car. And amidst discussion we decided that amongst the three of us I was the most feminine now Amber is kind of tomboy-ish, but she's still feminine and despite Stephanie's complexes about being butch she's really just as feminine as any grunge girl can be and I was still the most feminine of the three something's telling me I shouldn't be as proud of that as I am and the funny thing is I'm completely straight well... mostly straight I suppose technically I'm bi; but since I don't really want to date guys, I guess for all intents and purposes that makes me straight I have no idea where this is going, I just wanted to comment on this and on a somewhat related note: I've found the perfect band for me: The Cure I've had Just Like Heaven on my computer for a while; but just recently I've downloaded a lot more of their stuff and plan on buying their CDs asap plus they did a cover of Creep by Radiohead, which really sounds like one of their songs anyway; but it just makes them so fucking cool for doing that but it's the perfect music for feminine (mostly)heterosexuals I love it I realize this entry is bizarre and kind of stupid; but this is what's inside my head, as shallow and stupid as it may be which is why I really don't like being manic I would say I'm sorry if I thought it would change your mind but this time I've said too much been too unkind I try to laugh about it cover it up with lies I try to laugh about it hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry boys don't cry I would break down at your feet beg forgiveness, plead with you but I know that it's too late now there's nothing I can do I try to laugh about it cover it up with lies I try to laugh about it hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry boys don't cry I would say I love you if I thought it would make you stay but I know that it's too late you've already gone away I misjudged your limits pushed you too far took you for granted thought that you needed me more I would do most anything to get you back at my side but I'll just keep on laughing hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry boys don't cry boys don't cry -Boys Don't Cry The Cure � � |