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"Bring On The Dancing Horses" 2011-01-19 - 4:32 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj so, I guess this is another of those "in case I die/commit suicide" entries I never knew what to say to you you gave me everything, and I threw it away; you probably were the love of my life, but I held out I waited for door #3; never knowing until it was too late that you were the best I was going to get and if you ask me about it while I'm alive; I don't know what I'll say I never was that smart, emotionally You'll find someone better than me, I guarantee it; I'll bet on it every time but I don't think I'll find anyone better than you and even though you know the address to this diary; I hope you don't read this until after I'm dead because I will always let you down and being that I'm still alive (when I'm writing this); in a way I hope I'm wrong I hope that my choice was justified, and I find what I was looking for; when I spurned you but in case I am wrong; and I'm sure, alive or not, that I am; that this was the greatest mistake of my life that you, if no one else, will read this then Laura, I did love you and you were the best I could've had and I threw it away I'm sure, alive or not; that you don't need me but I think I needed you I hope I'm wrong but I know I'm right if there's any mercy in this universe, you won't read this until I'm dead because alive I can't shake the feeling that I'm wrong but I know you were it and I blew it you can do better but I can't or couldn't; depending on when you read this wah wah, I'm so melodramatic fuck, this was romantic; and not self-pitying; when I started I fucked it up, like I always do Sweet Dreams � � |