|
"Pallar Anders Visa" 2004-03-08 - 3:21 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I don't know how I'm feeling something's telling me it's bad I don't know why gah you may remember me talking about some girl named Erika who responded to my band's "drummer wanted" flyer well tonight I e-mailed her; offered to play guitar if she wanted to start a metal band it seems win-win I love female vocalists; but I'm a selfish bastard when it comes to singing but if she says yes; then I get to be in a band where I'm the singer and another with a female singer and then I also get to be in a punk band and a metal band I was really excited, but now I feel like shit for some reason it's like every sunday night I feel down God, I just miss Sindy so bad I've only ever felt that way about two people one never knew and Sindy I let go it's like having this hole in my chest for years and years I felt so utterly alone, it was physically painful sometimes then Sindy came along and filled that hole but I just couldn't accept it; and I pushed her away because I suck and now it hurts again every day I hate talking about this I feel so fucking whiny but Goddamnit, I don't know I don't even know � � |