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"Asleep" 2004-01-09 - 2:55 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj apparently it's David Bowie's birthday today I had no idea but Happy Birthday Mr. Bowie moving on; I did nothing today because I got sick the school did nothing today because they suck in other news, despite what I said yesterday, I think I know which side is going to come out on top and, on a semi-related note; sometimes, the loneliness becomes so biting that it physically hurts and there's nothing I can do well, nothing at the moment I've started what will probably be a very convoluted process towards an unsure end but it's started and now, as usual, I wait and feel like vomitting up my heart I'm such a fucking little girl I thought chicks dug the sensitive types as usual, I joke without feeling it's not even remotely about sex sex would be nice, but it's not what I need, or even want I want to be loved I can't just have some girl love me and be happy with me for one night and then just pick up my clothes and take off in the morning it doesn't work like that and it doesn't help that I'm "Mr. Self Destruct"[as it were] when it comes to these things if there's no problems I create them and then focus on them until they're all I can think about because I'm a shitty person here's hoping I really can change I Don't Want To Wake Up On My Own Anymore Sweet Dreams [I apologize for the choppiness of this entry, I'm pretty gone right now] � � |