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"Life Sucks And So Do I" 2003-12-10 - 4:55 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I want to make it clear that the only reason I'm updating tonight is that I don't like to leave depressed entries up after I'm not depressed anymore I don't have anything really to say and it's not even like I'm feeling a lot better I'm starting to really hate working late which is what my schedule has been most of the week it's nice in that I get to sleep in as late as I want but when work is over there's nothing else to do that's just it and the night managers suck stupid fucking job I can't wait 'til I get laid off I just pray I can find a better one I don't know maybe then I'll talk about something else for a change so my cousin talked to me today turns out that recording session he had planned that I thought would be happening before Christmas won't be happening 'til January 12 which is good really so he's making plans with me to actually get together and do something as you may remember, my band idea fell through so at the moment I'm kinda left with my pants down I don't know I've got a few songs written and since he told me it doesn't matter what he records as long as he records I can probably just do a few covers and maybe throw in an on-the-spot jam without any big problems which covers the substance but the problem lies in the fact that at the moment I'm short musicians to back me up I talked to Robyn about starting another band; but I didn't get much of a response not that I'm really pushing for one I'm going to ask Misty and Evan if they want to take part on friday not that they really dig the kind of music I'm writing [well, Misty might. She has nicely eclectic tastes] and then the next problem is that I need to get the songs written if worse comes to worse I can pull a Trent Reznor and cover both guitars, bass and vocals myself and have a drum machine for that but I need to get the songs written I've got [I think]4 with two guitar parts one that can stand on either one or two guitars and doesn't need other instruments and bass for two of those but I've only got lyrics for one I can write bass for the others no problem but I need a way to write the drum parts my cousin lost the serial number to the program he gave me so that's basically worthless he mentioned he could get the serial number from a friend of his with the same program but unless he does that I'm left without that and then I'm really bad at writing vocals I've never been good with words, and trying to make them all poetic doesn't help the main reason I need other musicians for a band is because I need someone to help me with the lyrics because I'm so bad at writing them I don't know I really want to work with Robyn, because she's really very talented and creative when she lets herself be so I'll ask her about that as well I don't know speaking of friday I'm starting to get kind of anal about the whole Santa idea which bothers me because it's just supposed to be fun and getting real anal=no fun [*edit* I just realized this morning how bad that looks. I wonder how many idiots searching for porn stumbled accross my diary and got all pissed off. Hee hee.] I just want things to go off without a hitch I don't want us to start getting dressed up and not have enough black or jewelry or something or get to the mall all scary and find out Santa isn't there that day or something like that 'cause that would just ruin it I don't know it's only friday; and it's pretty simple so I'll just hope that the sheer simplicity of the plan can keep me from getting too anal about it I'm such an asshole it sucks being me I have to make everything super-hard *sigh* whatever Mother Should I Build A Wall? � � |