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"Crying on Saturday Night" 2003-07-06 - 3:48 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj ...well, not really crying. tonight I'm just feeling really empty. it's like feeling lonely only not as specific. my life is just really empty and boring, and I don't know how to change it. I don't know how or where to meet girls. I can't make friends. I dont' know where I would go hang out. I'm not the club-type. There is a club around here that say they play "early-90's Alternative and Grunge" [and when someone asks what my favorite kind of music is, I say: "early-90's Alternative and Grunge"] but I don't feel like driving down there just to sit somewhere and not-drink and wait for girls to approach me because God knows I can't approach them I'm not the social-drinking type anyway I figure if I ever do get around to drinking it's only going to be when I'm depressed but regardless; I'm so sick of getting up, sitting around my house all day, and then going back to sleep but I don't know how to change I like to pretend a job would make a difference but I would just get up, go to work, come home, sit around, and then go to sleep occasionally emerging to spend money I'd like to be in a band, but I don't want to try until I get my PA System and I'm not going to get that until I finish my Government and I'm just having trouble getting myself to work on that I know my problems are all my fault but I can't change and so I just sit and bitch about it because that's all I know how to do Soy un Per De Dor I'm a Loser, Baby So Why Don't You Kill Me? Sweet Dreams � � |