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"The End of Something Beautiful" 2003-06-23 - 4:19 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj today[well, technically yesterday] was the one year anniversary of my diary huzzah ba-ba-baaa! I didn't get to jam with Evan today, but we're going to do it tomorrow(hopefully) I'm starting to feel weird again I'm starting to feel stale I felt this way before, semi-recently for my whole "should I become goth again?" phase a couple months back but it just feels like I'm stuck in a skin that doesn't fit properly I don't know there's a song in there somewhere I know it but speaking of which, I wrote another song this one I'm really proud of it reminds me of on all those VH1 specials where bands talk about how when they wrote these classic hits, it felt like they were writing a hit well this one felt like a hit this one felt like one of those cult-hits that casual music fans don't know about but people who know what's what know about like Last Caress or Love Will Tear Us Apart but I wish I could put the guitar in here, because it has this great riff I'm really proud of but you'll have to settle for the lyrics for now it's a funny story though, when I wrote this; I wrote it about one thing but the lyrics didn't quite fit and then I came up with the title and I changed the chorus and tweaked the lyrics a little and it really fits the title better than what I originally wrote it about anyway, I hope you enjoy; it's called "The End of Something Beautiful": do you remember anything? could you just forget everything? and you will not do a thing for you this simple song to sing and now the silence will remain still now you hold in all the pain but now you push us all away for now waiting for the day to my open arms, a closed door so I can't stay with you, anymore breathing out letting go looking down losing hold breathing out letting go looking down losing hold this time I'll stay for a while sometimes I still see you smile a time we walk away for miles no time but so much self-denial the day that things went so wrong today the problems still hold strong someday, it won't be that long always a beautiful time-bomb to my open arms, a closed door so I can't live for you, anymore breathing out letting go looking down losing hold breathing out letting go looking down losing hold waiting for the day when everything will change will the scars all heal? or will we be estranged? if things weren't this way would there still be pain? if I let you go could you walk away? -The End of Something Beautiful Me the lyrics aren't perfect but combined with the guitar they'll suffice but anyway, as you can probably figure, this is another slow song and lately it's been bothering me that I can only write slow songs I want to write a really good, hard, rockin' song Some Kind of Blues was a step in the right direction but it's not as hard as I want and the main thing is that the only times I'm really inspired to write songs are when I'm depressed and that leads to slow songs I mean, you can have good, hard songs with depressing lyrics that's easy but when I get depressed I prefer slower songs and therefore... but it bothers me I want to be a diverse artist, or at least like most artists who have slow songs and fast songs I don't want to be someone who just plays slow, depressing songs I've got my long hair for head-banging and it'd be a shame if it went to waste and as much as I like The Cure and Joy Division I like Motorhead and White Zombie just as much bah I also wanted to bitch about my troubles with writing comics; but I'll spare you for now Sweet Dreams My Life As A Movie: opening credits: The Future by Leonard Cohen party scene: Breathe by Prodigy falling in love scene: Imaginary by Evanescence love love scene: Love You To Death by Type O Negative driving after a break-up scene: Mudshovel by Staind driving to make-up the break-up scene: Love You To Death by Type O Negative plain old driving scene: 46 & 2 by Tool chase scene: Linchpin by Fear Factory fight scene: El Cu Cuy by Coal Chamber funeral scene: The Day the World Went Away by Nine Inch Nails closing credits: Love You To Death by Type O Negative [it was supposed to be the love scene of the movie. Besides, it's a great song.] � � |