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"Glycerine" 2003-04-25 - 2:59 a.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj Man, I'm going insane. Stephanie said she might have time for me this weekend God, I hope so 'cause I really need to hang out with someone and my choices are either her or Misty, and I don't think I'm up to calling Misty just yet I wish we could spend all weekend together get some people together, just hang out like we used to do watch movies, walk around Toys R Us, whatever but I need to be out doing something, and I need to be doing it with someone I think I may end up calling Mariah & Pals this sunday just because if I don't then I might end up on a killing spree I don't know I just need friends and money and a girlfriend and a new guitar and a pony or possibly a unicorn or pegasus, or whatever those half horse/half fish things were called [don't you dare say "Seahorse"; there's a mythological creature that has the top half of a horse and the tail of a fish; it starts with an "E" but I can't remember what it was called] or maybe a Centaur, that would solve all my problems then I'd have a friend and a pony but seriously, folks today sucked I went to see my stomach specialist today it was supposed to be simple, I would drive over there by myself, see him, have a smoke on the way home; and be home by 2:15 2:30 if I dropped off my new perscription but noooo my mom decided she wanted to go so I couldn't smoke then after that she decides she wants to go grocery shopping we went to Wal-Mart, 'cause she works there and had to get her check too and I've never seen so many fat people on scooters plus I saw a guy in acid washed jeans, and this creepy middle-aged woman who kept going out of her way to stand uncomfortably close to me so that took for ever then she went to cash her check then she went the long way to get to Walgreens to drop off my perscription so I didn't get home 'till almost 4 O'Clock and I had to spend 3 and a half hours with my mom by the time we pulled into our driveway I was having daydreams about beating her senseless with a lead pipe bah and the specialist who is, by the way, the single most annoying asshole of a doctor I've ever had at least today he finally had to concede that I was sick but he did it so begrudgingly like: "you're just barely sick. Barely. On a scale of 1-10, you're a .5" and I wanted to disembowel him yeah, I'm so un-sick that I had to drop out of school and I haven't been able to find a job I want to just brutalize him in a dark alley leave him looking like No-Face from Twisted Metal: Black anyway the doctor told me that I have Crohn's Disease now, to understand why that warrants having him killed, you have to know that after I got the colonoscopy done, he called me a week later and said that they didn't find anything now two months later he tells me that they did find something fucker so yeah, apparently they have treatment they can give me and even though it means I'm going to be taking a ton and a half of pills every day, hopefully it'll make me feel normal and if it really can do that, it's worth putting up with all the shit the specialist gives me hell, it's a steal I am curious, though, about what exactly it is that Andru- [Stephanie's sister Erin's friend] -had because they thought he had Crohn's Disease up until the last time he was in the hospital; and then they found out that he had something that was very similar to Crohn's Disease, but was curable where as Crohn's Disease is apparently just treatable so whatever I'll settle for treatable, it's definitely a step up from Irritable Bowel but I'm curious as to see if I can get curable the course of the day may have sucked, but all in all I got some very good news the downside, on the other hand, is that Sunday my aunt arrives now, as I mentioned in an entry a while back, my aunt is the embodiement of everything I don't like about my mom, and nothing I do like about her it's gonna suck having to spend a week with her but if I'm lucky I can get her to spoil me with a new guitar or maybe some musical equipment at the least I'm sure I can get some CDs or maybe a t-shirt or two out of her but I'm setting my sights high when I turn on the charm, I can get damn near anything I want out of people I don't use The Charm that often, and never on my friends, because with great power comes great responsibility, and I respect my friends too much to try and weasel things I want out of them it's just a sleazy thing to do but for aunts that rarely ever see me and that I'm not super-fond of, what can I say? I got things I want but seriously(again) I finally got Freak Scene started it wasn't really that I was intentionally putting it off, I just kind of didn't think about it it was wierd anyway, so I got it started, and I'm really proud of what I've got so far [about a page and 6-or-7/8] and I wish I had a scanner so I could show you nice people but the scanner we had broke and my dad hasn't bought a new one yet so to sum up: Going crazy, need friends; today sucked; found out I have Crohn's Disease, getting meds; my aunt's coming, hopefully I can persuade her to buy me things; got Freak Scene started, proud of progress to date Sweet Dreams Must be your skin I'm sinking in Must be for real 'cause now I can feel And I didn't mind it's not my kind Not my time to wonder why Everything's gone white And everything's grey Now you're here now you're away I don't want this remember that I'll never forget where you're at Don't let the days go by Glycerine I'm never alone I'm alone all the time Are you at one Or do you lie We live in a wheel Where everyone steals But when we rise it's like strawberry fields If I treated you bad You bruise my face Couldn't love you more You got a beautiful taste Don't let the days go by Could have been easier on you I couldn't change though I wanted to Should have been easier by three Our old friend fear and you and me Glycerine (repeat) Don't let the days go by Glycerine (repeat) Bad mood whine again Bad mood whine again As she falls around me I needed you more When we wanted us less I could not kiss just regress It might just be Clear simple and plain That's just fine That's just one of my names Don't let the days go by Could have been easier on you Glycerine -Glycerine Bush � � |