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"fuck you" 2003-01-19 - 10:56 p.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj it hurts so bad and I don't know what to do now except turn it into anger all I want is for someone to love me and not in the "I love you" type way me and my friends throw it around in the deep unconditional way that someone needs to be loved once I let Stephanie cry on my knee, I rubbed her back and said "it'll be ok" and that's what I need someone to do for me but I couldn't figure out how to say it before Stephanie wouldn't do that for me she told me so she doesn't love me the way I love her Misty doesn't not nearly I don't know why I even considered her there's only two people who came close to feeling that way about me two people who I want to feel that way about me Stephanie and Robyn and Robyn... she wants to get mad at me now to leave she never ever let me help her when she got depressed, I tried so hard to be there for her but she never let me and now when I do the same she wants to tell me she doesn't want to see me anymore? that's why I didn't feel that connection Robyn you wouldn't let me in and now you want to get pissed off about it? fuck saying "I'm sorry" for either of us I want to be your friend that's all and if you don't like that then it's your own goddamn fault shit I can't even be mad without feeling terrible about it I know how she feels fuck as I said, I did the same thing to her I understand why but Goddamnit that's fucking why Robyn that's why I didn't feel that connection with you and no one feels that connection with me so what the fuck am I supposed to do? all I fucking do is type in this thing and then lay on my floor and cry because that's all I can do so if any of you doesn't like it fuck off all I want is to be loved unconditionally and none of you want to provide that so fuck you if you don't like that I'm not happy about it fuck you � � |