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"Where the River Flows" 2002-11-30 - 11:40 p.m. older - previous - next - profile - host - my band - my lj I wrote a very long entry last night, but my piece of shit computer screwed up and it's gone stuff is happening in my life again the medication seems to be working, but I'm beyond wary; I'm overwhelmed with feelings of pessimism Steph, Robyn, and Evan: What do you want for Christmas? I'm a little pissed at the moment I told my dad about my idea about just taking correspondance courses for the rest of the year and getting a full time job he said I had to go to school I provided support and reasons he said he thinks I can go to school I told him it would be a waste of time, and things would be better for all involved if I could just spend my time on a job he said I'm going back to school I said I'm eighteen now, and I can make my own bloody decisions about my life he said as long as I live under his roof he's in charge I'd call his bluff except I know he's not bluffing, and I'm not ready to be on my own yet I'm not so much pissed that I have to go back to school; I can deal with that if I have to it's just kind of dumb is all what really fucking bothers me is that turning eighteen meant nothing at all I may be legally an adult, but hell if I could prove it I can't even buy cigarettes for fear my parents will catch me I have to get out of here I have to get far far away from Tucson, Arizona I have to get away from the Stickroth family when I get to college I'm changing my last name to Ramone I can't get out of here fast enough shit � � |